Trust me I have had broken hearts before , but this broken heart is the one that hurts the most , knowing the fact that I can’t go back to loving you the way I once did before . My feelings are still there , but I honestly can’t promise you that it’ll be the same the way it was before . I used to be excited to see you , but once I saw you yesterday , I wasn’t that excited , I wasn’t happy , just all the pain you have put me thru came back &it made me more mad that I just had to make up an excuse just to drop you off . I thought we could just go back to the way things were but it can’t , it won’t . It’s not that I don’t want it to , I really wanna bring it back to how it was , but how can it ? I can’t keep forcing myself to make it happen , I can’t force you to be with me , but you said you wanted to be with me , but I honestly don’t know if it’ll be all worth it in the end . I looked thru our pics , &how happy I was , but now it’s just idk . Those are just memories . You made me believe that you were gon change , you made me believe that things will be different but how much more pain do you think I can take , &how many more lies do you expect me to ignore ? I just don’t even know anymore , you pushed me away , so I pulled away . I’m confused &lost I just don’t know what I want anymore .
I needa stop thinking about you , I needa stop wanting you , I needa stop loving you . I just need to stop , stop all these feelings . It’s sad how things were being played , I knew I should have just kept it to friend zone with you . I was doing perfectly fine before I even met you , I was doing me . My heart hurts , I’m tossing &turning . I can’t even sleep . I wish there was a way where I can just block you out my thoughts . It’s funny how you cheated on me &yet you’re still denying it , funny how I know your voice &youre saying that it wasn’t you . I’m better than this , I deserve better than this . I feel so disgusted . Agh , why did i actually believe that you were different ? all guys are the same . I will never find a good guy , a faithful guy at that . I’m just so hurt you don’t even know . If only you knew ..
Here I am early in the morning thinking about you , & what we can become . It’s to early in our relationship to know what’s ahead of us , but honestly all I see is joy &laughter . You’re most def different than all the guys I have ever dated , &it feels good to start fresh with someone like you . I can never stay mad at you , &when I try to be mad you ALWAYS have the ability to make me laugh . You can act like a little kid at times but when it’s time to get serious , you know exactly what to say . The times we spend together are AMAZING . You ain’t scared to show anyone who your female is , it’s been awhile since I truly felt happy , I’m just glad I can share this happiness with you , corny I know right ? But what can I say , you got me feeling some type of way . As long as you stay solid with me imma rock with you , always keep it 100 with me , &ill do the same , no questions needed . I can’t think of anything else I can say , becos these feelings that I have built for you , words can’t even seem to explain it . All I can do is show you , actions speak louder than words anyways . I mean who knows , you can be my forever &always . Everytime I’m with you , I get butterflies in my stomach , everytime we on the phone I still get butterflies , baby it’s the little things that you do , that got me feeling this way ❤️ I promise you that I won’t jump out the car , as long as you don’t jump out the train haha . &all this started from a stupid app called Tagged haha . Baby , you’re sorta the best . ❤️
Idk how to feel towards you , it’s like you’re tryna lead me on hoping there will be a future for us again , as much as I want that to be true . I miss you , I miss us , ever since Sunday everything felt like it used to like when we were us , against the world . I don’t wanna feel that way if you just wanna have fun . I ain’t tryna be friends with benefits either. I want us the right way , when nothing else mattered but us . Is that too much ? Being with you , having you in my presence just feels right . Why can’t you see what you’re doing to me ? I’m drowning myself in thoughts hoping you would want me as much as I want you . It’s confusing how you would wanna be all lovey dovey one minute then the next it’s like tf . I don’t wanna be your side chick that you can fucks with , honestly I want more than that . If you just wanna have fun give me a heads up so I know not to bring feelings in . I’m just so confused with you . My mind is everywhere with you , I honestly don’t know how to feel , I don’t know if I can even let my guard down . Sunday was real right? You had your arms around me like before , you made sure I wasn’t cold , you acted like you were my boyfriend . You’re really rocking my brain right now . Agh I just want to know .
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I miss getting those unexpected phone calls from you. Seeing your name and favorite picture of you on my cellphone screen & hearing that song I specifically chose as your ringtone. I miss our daily talks on the phone. I miss when you’d call me early in the morning. I miss when you’d call right…
GUYS—why doesn’t anybody ever talk about Lucid Dreaming? It’s something that I think that everybody should know about, but it seems that few people actually know what it is.
At its core, Lucid Dreaming is being aware that you are dreaming while you are still in the dream. Ok, ok, I know. That doesn’t sound very interesting, but believe me, it is.
You see, once you are aware that you are dreaming, your mind wakes, but your body remains asleep. With your mind conscious, the dreamworld around you seems REAL. Basically, you have an entire virtual world of your own invention, existing all around you. With practice, this gives you the ability to do amazing things that you couldn’t do in the real world.
-Fly over beautiful landscapes
-Eat as much food as you want
-Travel the World
-Bend elements like in the Avatar universe
-Go to HOGWARTS!
-Fly the TARDIS WITH THE DOCTOR
YOU CAN DO BASICALLY ANYTHING YOU WANT!!!!! AND IT SEEMS REAL!!!!
Ahem..sorry. But seriously—why aren’t people totally jumping on this?
If you want to find out more about it, and how to learn how to do it:
-First watch this video (this is where I learned about it): The World of Lucid Dreaming
-And also visit this site for tutorials: Dreamviews
I wish you could see , how much pain I’m going thru .